The homily our priest gave last Sunday during mass was about forgiveness. I struggle with this. I often say that I have forgiven someone, but I hold their offenses in my heart, and have trouble letting go of them, even though I may want to. Evidence of this are the Truly Hurtful Remarks I mentioned in my previous post about comments that parents of large families receive and my Rant post relating what a man said to me in church. As part of my attempt to really let those hurtful things go, I have removed them from my blog, in the hopes that true forgiveness will follow. (Although maybe forgiving and forgetting are two different things?) If I've truly forgiven, will the memory still make me feel hurt or angry?
2 comments:
Paula, I am really struggling with forgiveness too. My brothers wife has caused a HUGE amount of conflict in my family, and I try to forgive so that we can have a relationship, but I just can't seem to let it go.
She does and says stuff over and over again....just when I move on from one conflict, she starts another. But I have to remind myself how many times God has forgiven me...............too many times to count.
And I have to take responsibility for my part in it as well and hope that she too can forgive and move on.
I Really struggle with unconditional love in this case. So, I just try and take it one day at a time. Luckily I don't have to be around her much.
This is really hard. Even if you are able to forgive, that memory continues on and on. It's a struggle for most I think. Sometimes hurt just runs too deep.
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